1:37 am

i woke up abruptly and stared into the my laptop’s monitor screen. it read 1:37 am.

i cooed myself and calmed myself down, and blaming the bright screen for the fear induced in me, i shut the computer off and tried to get myself into bed. i said a silent prayer, that my heart be calmed and my sleep not be disturbed. yet, i was still trembling in fear. i managed to remind myself of my God’s greatness, and managed to get my eyes closed, after reassuring that angels are watching over me.

this was not a panic attack.

for the first time, in a long, long time, i had a nightmare. nightmare that literally woke me up in the middle of the night with my heart pumping and fear stricken. it was gory. it was fearsome. it terrifying.

images are still vivid, though the fear had subsided. i just hope that i’ll not have another nightmare ever again.

silence

there is an awkward silence here in this room.

i have an odd sense of peace, yet there are un-restfulness within the odd peace. something is doing quite the stirring, but i can’t place exactly what. it is just an exceptionally quiet sunday afternoon, and i do not intend to ruin the silence that i am having.

but i will very much appreciate a quiet companion in this quiet afternoon.  a mate, a book and a cup of iced coffee sounds divinely tasteful.

mocha ice blended & chocolate eruption

my christmas wish list

now i was tagged by susana on my christmas wish list, and apparently items on the list had to be, erm, affordable.

now in my humble opinion,  it is way easier to come up with a list of extravaganza gifts that are way over the top and nothing humble about them than to list down ten very practical-don’t-burst-budget items. this, to me is a challenge. cause if we’re talking bout over the top gifts, i can think of so many. well, for instance the craving for Coach’s Sequin Spotlight bag in black. no idea how it looks like? here’ a picture for your referral:

Coach Sequin Spotlight

nice, right?? this bag is retailed at USD380, which after conversion and taxes and all those extras, should be around RM2000 plus. that is just my speculation though. however, it is still affordable, right? if one can get 20 people to chip in RM100 each, then there’s the RM2000 and there is my bag how awesome is that?

ok, ok… i’ve sidetracked a lot. i’ll come back down to earth.. so 10 items that i want and that is affordable…. give me some time to think about it k….

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erm.. okay.. after some brain cracking, here goes:

1.  cash. since i don’t exactly know what i REALLY want (there are a lot of wants you see….), so i guess the more practical way is to give me cash.

2.  okay now that i was touching up my make up, i realize there are stuff that i REALLY need. for instance, i’m running out of concealer, so i would love to have my Shiseido The Makeup Concealer at #2 Medium Naturel

Shiseido Concealer

3.  liquid eyeliner from the body shop, again in #2, brown color.

The Body Shop - Liquid Eyeliner

4.  well, i don’t mind another mascara… doesn’t have to be shu uemura’s. just good old l’oreal ultra volume collagene will do.

5.  now that i am running out of skin care products, the following four wish list items will of skin care that i need (now we’re talking bout NEEDs not WANTs). okay, first off, i need a first cleanser that is mild. so, i’d love to have dermalogica’s ultracalming cleanser.

Dermalogica Ultracalming Cleanser

or, alternatively, Aesop Fabulous Face Cleanser will do the trick just fine, too.

Aesop Fabulous Face Cleanser

6. Then moving on to the second cleanse. it won’t be as pricey as dermalogica’s. this i promise you. for my second cleansing routine, it is usually biotherm’s biopur pore reducer.

Biotherm Biopur Pore Reducer

7.  and then one has to tone one’s face. for toner, i’d love to switch to aesop’s parsley seed anti-oxidant facial toner

Aesop Parsley Seed Anti-Oxidant Facial Toner

8. and last but not least, the moisturizer. Aesop Camellia Nut Facial Hydrating Cream.

Aesop Camellia Nut Facial Hydrating Cream

there… i’ve got 8 listed down… as for the remaining two. hmm.. still not sure what i want, but in view of practicality, i think i have a fair idea of what i don’t mind getting for christmas

9.  free dinner (okay.. either greek food, or some expensive gourmet food.. LOL… okay lar… not so picky, some good food and good fellowship will be great)

10. more cash. can’t help it. i find money more practical than gifts, even though i do love gifts, but sometimes if one doesn’t know what to gift the other, cash is the best gift.  so if you’re not sure of what to buy for me, give me cash. i’ll buy my own.

so.. practical enough, eh?? my wish list could be a little pricier than normal gifts, but still within reach, plus they’re really what i need. and in case you did not notice, all 10 items mentioned nothing bout shoes and bags. wow, huge step into civilization and humanitarian.  so… i’m being the philanthropist for  not bursting one’s budget too much.. hahahha

exhaustion

i am SO tired it’s not even funny…

i found myself dragging my sorry ass out of the bed every weekday when the ungrateful alarm rings at the ungodly hour of 6.45am.  and lately it had become such habits that i’ll turn off the alarm completely and continue my journey down la-la land, telling myself that it’s alright to snooze for another 30 minutes, which normally results in myself bolting out of the bed, rushed into the shower room and chose my outfit haphazardly.

i am SO tired now  that dressing up is a chore. i love dressing up, who doesn’t? but now i treasure my sleep so much more than dressing up, and i almost wished that everyday is a t-shirt & jeans day, so i can just throw on any t-shirts and a pair of jeans and not bother bout how i look. and not to mention the caking of my face.

i used to smack on make up at home, when i managed to haul the body out of the bed at the intended time. but now? forget it.. by the time i got out of the house without an ounce of chemically colored liquids on my face it is  usually no earlier than 7.45 am.  and i had to hit the traffic latest by 8 else i’ll be stuck in a horrendous jam… so, now i resorted to applying make up at work. yes. so i show my pale face to the world, and then i climbed the 3 storey building up to the top floor, sit my tired ass down, groan and grumble wishing i could have more sleep, made myself a cup of coffee, had my coffee, facebook, and then will i start taking out my make up pouch and start smearing creams and concealers and mascara.  i don’t even bother with eye shadow or cheek blush.  that shows how “dedicated” i am in terms of dolling up.

ok… enough of whining. i feel such spoil brat who can’t get a life without whining. but that being said, i have to say this: i <3 this week cause it’s the LONG WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i am so loving december cause there are THREE long weekends!!!

touch a star

it had been an honor, really (even though i was initially very reluctant), to had been chosen to emcee the company’s special dinner event last evening held at the marc residence.

honored cause it was my first time hosting any events, not to mentioned with the crowd size of over 10o. and i really do thank God for such grace that He had given me, and that the event, despite an initial rocky start, went on smoothly and wonderfully for all our guests and very valued customers.

and honored cause i got the chance to have a little sit down chat with our celebrity spokesperson who flew in all the way from hong kong – jessica hester hsuan (宣萱, pronounced as Xuen Huen in cantonese).

here’s a picture or two of her. i haven’t got lots of pictures as i was on the move all the time, and my colleagues helped me took this pic of me and her while i was hosting the event, but unfortunately i had been blocked by some white colored tree.

however, enjoy the photos, and i apologize for the low quality of the photos.

 

if ever i got my hands on nicer photos that were taken by the hired photographer, i won’t be stingy and i’ll definitely share it out.

where the snow??

i stood in the middle of dataran merdeka with all the neon lights shining around me, fully geared with my ski jacket, ski poles, ski boots, ski sleds, my blue felt toque, ski gloves and mask.

i stood there, fully geared, at  7pm sharp, waiting for malaysia’s first snow. but sadly, i waited, and it did not happen. no sign of snow….

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hah!!! who am i kidding? we’ve got to wait eons for that to actually take place… but it does, however rain cats and dogs. and it had to rain right after i had my car washed and beautifully waxed…. sad…. 39 ringgit gone…. blek

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow…

rumor has it that the global climate has gone haywire, and that there is a prediction for fluffy weather here in mud city tomorrow evening.

i have read blogs as well as receiving the email myself on the freak winter storm that’s going to hit our tropical land of malaysia. to be precise, to hit the capital city of boleh land.

as much as i wish it would happen, i’m afraid it is just another baseless rumor. something that is not of substance, but perhaps more on the fantasy line. but i can, however, be proven wrong. it is true that the climate is getting all wrong and the weather had been rather extreme to the max, yet i still find it less than plausible of a snow storm.

if the email predicts for a hail storm, i would accept it without a doubt as it does happen exactly 9 years ago. snow storm? not so convincing.  but of course, that is my view point from a lay man, not from a weather specialist or some other professional. not even from God’s point of view. for all you know, Jesus decides to give us malaysian a taste of canadian winter, and hence the strong and freezing wind that turns all rain into snow

that’ll be amazing and interesting. but i, however, am keeping my eyes open tomorrow. just in case it does snow, then we can build snow man here in mud city and save the hassle on going up to genting’s snow world and when it does snow, it’s like a major miracle gift that the Lord is giving us all. cool, eh?

umbrella

“because, when the sun shines we’ll shine together, told you i’ll be here forever, said i’ll always be a friend, took an oath i’m a stick it out to the end…. now that it’s raining more than ever, know that we’ll still have each other, you can stand under my umbrella, you can stand under my umbrella… ella… ella… eh eh… under my umbrella… ella ella eh eh eh..”

maybe it’s the raining season… but i can’t help but sing this umbrella song. and this song was stuck to my head since morning. the “ella… ella.. ella… eh.. eh.. eh…” is real catchy and it got me hooked on, just like how i was hooked on YMCA when i was sitting for my final exams years ago… haha…

i know… this is such a random post. randomosity rulez!!!

moody

i’m not emo-ing… i’m just moody. not sure why, but i’m suspecting the overloaded work related stress and the physical weariness is the cause of it.

argh. moody moody moody

 

by the way, I NEED PART TIMERS urgently. GIRLS ONLY… interested, please please please contact me.

off carbs

in lieu of an upcoming company dinner next weekend (please Lord let it happen.. let there be enough seats that they won’t have to scrap me off the list…. hahahaha…. ), i have decided to lay off carbohydrate this week (or the days remaining of this week) and next.

absolutely NO carbs. cause i want to lose some more weight. i’m not obsessed, i just feel a little of the peer pressure. being in this industry, image is rather important, and i would like my bosses to be happy with me (wits and brains and looks and all).

that being said, i did not, however, plan on how many kilograms to lose. i’ll just go with the flow. as long as i do not put on, i am happy. and however many kilograms that i will shed, i’d be thankful. i won’t be shedding much weight anyways, cause it’s just 10 days without carbohydrate. won’t do much of a dramatic difference. i am, however, flushing my system with an average of 2.2 litres of water per day. am still keeping up this habit, and so far, i’m happy with myself.

oh… when will i drop to my ideal weight?? hmm… of vanity and sanity…. sometimes vanity wears the pants