it’s march 31st, but you’re aint hitting your 31

in fact, you’re celebrating your 27th year on planet earth……

happy birthday, ShinQ

you brought bundles of joy to our family, and you’re already family!!!!

xoxos

it felt like winter

It felt like winter, as I reluctantly got out of bed, squint my eyes at the alarm clock. 7:25 am.

I don’t think I have sufficient sleep. Got home late last night, tidied up my side of the room a tiny bit… aiming to create a more workable environment for my part time passion. Thus the late prelude to my night of uneasy sleep, added by the symphony played by the person sleeping next to me… I was getting cranky. I wanted a good night’s sleep, and lately, it was unachievable. The body that slumps on the otherside of the room seemed to enjoy playing the concerto very much. I remembered getting really irritated, tempted to just turn to my right, and shook that huge mass of flesh and blood and fat vigorously, shrieking on top of my lungs, GIVE ME A GOOD NIGHT’S SLEEP!! Alas, I failed to do so, even more convincing myself, it’s okay.. tolerance, tolerance……..

And as I tried so hard to walk into dreamland, whose door closes shut, I began wondering to another piece of land. I wanted out. I want to get a room of my own. A place of my own. A studio apartment. No. My own room is just great for a start… and then I imagined all the necessities I will need to start my own room: a mattress from Ikea, bed frame from Ikea, L-shaped study table will be great….. oh!! Stop it!!! Stop it!!! I can’t drool over these luxuries just yet!!! I’ve got to save some dough for that.. wait!!! My savings’ enough for these stuff… yeah?? But you’ve gotta prepare for rainy days!!! can you just feel my internal turmoil?????

Never mind that argument……. The incongruence went on for a fair bit, and it was the key that opens the gate of dreamland. I dozed off, and awoke to the blazing fluorescent light… it was cold. It felt like winter…

I got out of the room, went into the bathroom. Turn on the heater and let the water run down my body. It was chilly. It reminds me of winter……. The reluctance to get my body wet, and when wet, the reluctance to stop the warm fuzzy water from flowing down my body…….. a stench of nostalgic grave feeling took over me.

What on earth am I here? It got me thinking again……. I almost dwell into the melancholy, when my conscience pulled me out just at the nick of time. Everything happens for a reason. I know well about that. But sometimes, when the reasons aren’t clear, you wonder, if certain decisions that you make is worth the while? No use in regretting. Never regret over things you’ve done. Puckered up my lips, I reluctantly move out of the water, and get dressed.

It felt like winter…. The gloominess of the sky, the chill, and the depressing grave feeling… it is my winter here in hot sunny Malaysia. It is winter.

photo taken 2 weeks ago

i’ve been away

for the last 3 days……………………………

had been busy with stuff, and my laptop decided to play a fool on me by disabling the wifi system, and i had to go wireless for what, 3 nights???? and it makes me consider further: GET A NEW LAPTOP………

was out the whole day yesterday.

had my nails done, hair done, all at the price of RM111 total……… cheap leh!!!!

will post pics up later……..

and now…………………i gota go
c ya

what ticks me off

smokers who are civilized enough to smoke in a non-smoking environment: air-conditioned office environments and poorly ventilated toilets. they will huff and puff like there’s no tomorrow (which in away is true since they so wanted to die young), and affecting the rest of the world.

they are so courteous to share their 2nd hand smoke, that they do not mind smoking within the building, and thanks to the poor building maintenance and management, the rest of the non-smokers actually have to share their cares and make them die 20 years younger.

and to make things worse, the idiotic office management had faulty fire fighting system…. with the amount of cigarette smoke enveloped the whole floor, the fire alarm failed to ring, what to say the sprinkler????? cigarette smoke engulfs the whole first floor daily without fail. and when 3 or 4 or one whole pack of cigarette hungry wolves feast together, i’m sure my life had shorten more than just 20 years.

i generally do not like smokers. nevermind them if they have the basic manners to smoke outdoors. yet there are bunches of tards that just won’t budge and selfish enough to trap the rest in their second hand smoke.

i know you’d like to kill yourself tenderly and softly and slowly. but please, i don’t want to die just yet. thanks, but no thanks!

p/s: i desperately miss Canada…………… i miss her so much that i can pack my bags and fly there straight and not come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wait…… i’ve got no money

i think

from now onwards……… i will walk the reverse of bimbotic…….. oh wait, that seems impossible, or rather difficult to achieve. nevermind

but for starters…… i will not post pics of self on this blog anymore….. but photos will be posted on my picasaweb (that is if i do update it)…

but then again, i do not normally post very vain photos of myself on my blog right……. i think some readers don’t even know how i look like… muahahahaha (that is beside my family + friends)

but then, there won’t be any juice left in my blog if i don’t bimb it out…… it’s already monotonous, and now with the reduction of vain pictures, what can this blog be????????????? oh i know…. dry

but anyways…….. maybe i’ll scrap this idea aside…. i will just blog whatever whenever i feel like to. cos this is considered as “freedom of speech”, right??? no??? nevermind….

time to sleep now….. nites people!!! XOXO!!!

if you think life is nothing but fluffy clouds

then i shall burst your bubble!!! read below. our country is real fcuked up, security wise.

fyi: i will just cut n paste the emails lar…… lazy to retype and/or edit… so any vocabulary and grammatical errors are not mine k.

Email #1:

I’m circulating this more for awareness than anything else. Have removed person’s mobile number to prevent crank callers; but have left e-mail address for contact purpose.

Seeing that you guys do go to OUG and i’m sure being us .. we go out late at night … this is a friend’s brother that is a victim.. do take care and no matter how careful … you’ll think that it’ll never happen to you but you just will never know …
Date: Mon, 17 Mar 2008 01:06:45 -0700
From: fay0108@yahoo.com
Subject: WQB3200 Robbed and Car Hijacked on 16th March 2008
Dear friends,

You probably have received and heard many of these cases before,unfortunately here is another. I would like to endorse the genuineness of the following incident as it happened to my brother and urge your help to spread the word to those you know.

Regards,
Fay

Hi, my name is Fuankee, Ryan. I’m trying to create public awareness on the robbery case happened to me just yesterday night 16th March 2008, Sunday 11pm+. For your own safety, kindly spend a couple of minutes and read through this.


I was in my car (Silver Chevrolet Optra5, with the engine running, windows up, and doors locked) with a friend of mine parked right outside of Plaza OUG, Megah Mendung, OUG, Kuala Lumpur at 11pm when a champagne color Perodua Kelisa (Manual Transmission) stop next to my car. A malay man with mustache walked out from the passenger side of the kelisa, probably aging around his late 20s walked up to my side of the car, knocked the window and asked for our IDs. I was fooled by his appearance as a plain coat police, as I personally did encounter with a few before, and winded down the window slightly, only a couple of inches down, but out of my expectation, he reached his right hand for my car lock’s knob very swiftly, and within seconds, he had already opened my car door. Out of nowhere, another guy came and pulled my key off the ignition. At the same time, another two guys (one indian, one malay) had already reached the passenger door, asking my friend (a girl) to get off the car as well. Calmly, she asked, “Where’s your police ID or even a search warrant?” Instantly, he threatened to get her off by saying, “saya ada pistol, ( i have a gun)” and pointed a gun at my friend. The fake policeman grabbed me very hard by my arm, dragged me out of the car and pushed me against the car. I asked for his police ID as well, but he pulled out a 2ft length rusted ‘parang’ from his black jacket, threatening me by directing the ‘parang’ right at my face instead. He forced me to get on the floor and body searched me for valuables. At that very moment, I had nothing with me as all my belongings as in wallet, watch and handphone were all inside the car. I was so close to believing that it would be my last night, afraid that they would get all angry, finding nothing valuable with me. 3 men (i think) then hopped back to the kelisa (all in all, there were at least 4 men, suspecting 5) and the remaining men got in my car n sped off.

We were very thankful that they didn’t decide to stab me in the end, or harm/take my friend along with them. The police have been quite helpful by having road blocks and teams patrol around the areas that we manage to track between the 1hr + after my car’s lost. *My friend’s phone had maxis’s friend finder and it was left in the car, and the last traced location was at Persiaran Sukan Seksyen 13, Shah Alam, Selangor*. Not long after, they shut both phones off.

I urged the public to take EXTRA EXTRA precautions over matters like these. and i hope by forwarding this mail around, the public can help raise the awareness of the danger in our current society.


Details about the suspects
Vehicle: Perodua Kelisa
Model: Late model of Kelisa series
Color: Champagne
Car reg. no: Both front and back were taped with masking tape but i manage to read a “6″ as the first of the 4 numbers.
Suspects: at least 4 (believed to be 5), Malays and Indians, late 20s or early 30s.


Identical details about my lost car
‘05 Chevrolet Optra5 WQB3200
(pls find the attachment for the pictures of my car model)

Exterior:
– Metallic Silver Hatchback (looks somewhat like a Proton Satria Neo)

– 17″ Semi-matte metallic black rims, with Firenza 215/45/17R
– “Chevrolet” and “Optra5″ emblems at the back removed

– Smoked tail-lights n rear reflector at the bumper
– Gold color disc brake calipers, all 4, front and back
– Scratched n dented horizontally on the rear left side of the car, between the rear door n the tail-light

– Bluish green tint at the sides n rear mirror, dark non-reflective tint on wind-screen.
– Matte black sticker strip across the top of the wind-screen


Interior:
– Grey & dark grey interior upholstery, with silver strips on the dashboard n doors

– Red dashboard and center console lights, instead of the stock green.
– Auto transmission
– Kenwood CD player
– 12″ Rockford Punch sub-woofer, in sealed enclosure, with black velvet finish
– Prokick 1200w mono-block amplifier below the left passenger seat

How you can help (me and yourself)

• Kindly contact me (fuankee) at 012-******* or 012-******* if you get informations about the car itself or the parts, being sold, seen, or found. you will be kindly rewarded.
• Kindly contact me or the police if information about the suspects are found.
• Friends, families, business colleagues, clients, suppliers, kindly drop me a sms as i’ve lost all business cards and contacts along with my car.
• SPEED OFF carefully to places with more people if similar scenario happens, for your own safety, regardless they’re the real police or not.
• Forward this to people you know. THIS IS NOT A SPAM MAIL. Forwarding this email WILL NOT make you any richer, but nobody deserves something like this. And certainly you don’t want yourself, or your loved ones to experience this first hand.

P.S, It’s reported that robbers even force children to knock at your car windows and claim that they’re lost. DO NOT wind your windows down to help them cos as soon as you do, these robbers will do the same like they did to me. Just report the lost kid to the police with your windows up.

and moving on to email #2:

Please take a few minutes to read this and please pass it on to every female you know and care about.

On Saturday, 16th, at 6:45pm my sister (original email writer) boarded a taxi at the Wangsa Maju LRT to return home. At the end of the road, the taxi driver stopped to pick up another passanger (male) who seemed to be going off the same direction. Well, my sister didn’t suspect anything funny as they looked genuine, and he was
going her direction and she was in a hurry. Little did she suspect that she was in for a huge trauma!

But when she asked the taxi driver to turn into the junction where she lives, the driver pretended to miss it and the male passenger said that since they were already nearer to his place, why not send him off first and the driver politely asked my sister if that’s ok… and she thought she was doing a good deed!

As soon as they got to the end of the housing area next to the big walls of the Academi TV3, the male passenger, locked all the doors and leapt to the back and held a knife at her throat and forced her to bend her head down – she had to give up her jewelry, and the $200 cash she had.

Not satisfied with only that much, they threatened for more so they drove off to Maybank Jln Setapak and took out everything she had. That was around 7:30pm ….. The driver returned the card after clearing the account! Then they drove off to the
back area of Tasik Titiwangsa and dropped her off there. Left her with only $10 and ask her to take another taxi home! My sister had to walk a long way back to the main road to get help and she is really traumatized by all these.

Later at the police station we found out that she was victim #3 that same day! Let’s remind everyone we know, as it could easily happen to us too or to anyone we care about.

The lesson to be learnt here:
1. always check the car plate # BEFORE you board a taxi.
2. always check the other things that a taxi should have – the driver’s ID, the inside number etc etc.
3. NEVER allow the driver to pick up another passenger – No matter what! if they do, get off and just pay the man.
4. avoid taking the taxi alone, if you can.
5. be extra careful if it is after office hours.

so still think our country’s lovely and bubbly??????? not anymore…… sad, right?? anyways, hope that you guys will be extra extra cautious lar…… especially the XX chromosomes species. be extra alert!!

randomness rules!!

oh i’m sure i had something in mind earlier that i’d like to blog about…… but now it’s gone.. pooff!! but then, i stubbornly wanted to blog about something… anything…. everything, so i’d figure i’ll just blog randomly….

as being the Queen of randomness, i’m sure i shall never fall short on blurting whatever that comes to mind (how scattered brain can i be??? *sighs*) yeah…….. but anyways,

are there any Piping Designer (from the Oil & Gas industry) out there??? with the knowledge of PDMS (of at least 3/4 years). if so, CONTACT ME!!!! I’VE GOT JOB FOR YOU!!! *sighs* why do i even bother?? it’s not like any piping designer will just pop up and say “hey!! looking for me??”

but anyways………… it had been raining really rascally lately, right?? and the supposedly “smart” tunnel really outsmart us all —- by shutting down and thus the mighty jam…….. *sighs*

and then, now that i remember, anybody knows how to create a web form?? you know, the kind of form that people can type on the webpage, and when click submit, it’ll send directly to my email… that kind of high tech thing… please?? anyone out there?? teach me!!! or tell me where to search for it… i’m too blonde for all these websites thing ah……. so SOS !!

anyways……… it’s 5:18 now, and it means i’ll be off soon!!!!!!!!!! wwweeeeeeee!!!!!!! *sighs* unproductive day for me….

why rush??

so it’s no news that i had been detached for a year now. and concerning friends will always pop a common question: so are you seeing anyone, yet?

so my answer to that, might as well make this public so i don’t have to answer the same question numerous times, is: NO. i am still single. and i am happy this way, for now!

when probed into further “explanation” of my not meeting new guys out there, the usual answer i’ll give is: why rush?? i’m not in a hurry. i’m only twenty three twenty four. i don’t see the need of getting tied down.

okay….. maybe i should recreate a generic conversation that i so often have with friends and/or acquaintance.

friend: So tINg`, how’ve you been?? what’s new?
me: oh i’m fine, good. yourself??
friend: me?? good, good. so how are you ah?? got new boyfriend yet??
me: hahaha!!! no lar. still single
friend: aiyorrr……… why??? why don’t go out and look?
me: hahaha!!! no need lar… so desperate meh… i’m still young mah
friend: haiyo!! 24 not young lor!! you see, so-and-so also getting married d, not young liaw lar!! plus, it’s time liaw!! so long liaw since you’re with your last boyfriend… must move on mar!
me: err…… it’s only one year…. long meh??? plus i not in a hurry lar…
friend: wah!! one year still say not long ah!!! haiya….. there are many fishes out there…… go fish mah!!! so wasted stay alone during weekends. your life must be very boring lor!
me: hahaha!! weekend for me to sleep in mar.. after 5 days of work, get some rest lor, plus i have my stuff to do one lar!!
friend: stuff?? do what!!! haiyar i tell you, you go out meet more guys. then your life not boring. i guarantee you. or maybe your requirement high is it!! come tell me!! what kind of guys you looking for? i see i can intro o not….
me: -____-” no need lar… haha…. fate not yet arrive… ahahahahaha
friend: say lar… what kind of guys u want… u looking for permanent to get married one or just play play one.
me: -_________________-

*sighs*

i think i should say it out loud lor: GIVE ME A BREAK LARRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

seriously lor…. not that i don’t want to have boyfriend ler….. just that i want to take things slowly. i mean i just started my job like months ago, and i need things to be settled down first…. i’m not 42, so i’m not desperate to be married out….. and plus, i believe that if the timing’s right, God will prepare lor…

right now, i don’t think i need to go out scouting… no need right…. befriends, yes. i will not turn down the opportunity to befriends with guys or gals.. having more friends is great. but i don’t think i want to go out making friends with the intention of finding boyfriend lor…… I AM NOT THAT DESPERATE…….

so, seriously!!! why rush?????????? why should i speed down the highway of lifetime commitment?? dating isn’t just for fun (not to me). it’s something that will lead on to my life’s next chapter — to have a family. so, i don’t think having a boyfriend for the sake of having a boyfriend is such wise idea.

okay, so to all my friends out there: i appreciate your concern. i am happily single now.

blogger, blogger, pants on fire

i was amused. really. by the complexity of the blogosphere. apparently, not all bloggers are dormant and mundane like me. yeah, i get it, i’m b.o.r.i.n.g

but boring peep like me enjoy wasting my time blog hopping. and i usually land on several selected blogs. and lately, it seems that there had been some disputes and/or misunderstanding that had been going on between a few of them famous bloggers (famous cos i assume they are)

and what is interesting is that blogger A will flame blogger B, blogger B will of course perform some self defending tactic (either browbeat blogger A via blog, or use whatever method to justify him/herself), and then there will usually be a formation of alliance. maybe blogger A will have blogger C or D or E or whoever that will side him/her, and blogger B will form his/her own ally (this is so Blog War I)

and whatever that caused the flaming, i cannot be sure. because if i were to read back that original piece of article that started this blogowar, honestly, i find no reason for such consequence. but maybe, just maybe, some of them are being oversensitive, probably misunderstand the other party, and/or the mentioned article was indeed intended to create a feud over thrifty issue. or, it could be that my low intellectual ability had unable me to comprehend the origin of the flame….. i just can’t find the need for the flames

ok lar…… i think i’m getting sidetracked (or at least i can no longer focus what i want to type due to a pounding headache —- headache some more want to blog… so kiasu). but i guess how these bloggers, whose pants were indeed on fire, affect me is that i visit their blog more often -__- (what? to spice up my mundane life mar….. reading all these browbeating and self-inflating entries are very fun, ok!! you get to feel how mature/wise/old you are :S)

i know…. LOL so i suppose, maybe all these bloguements are indeed publicity stunts??? ok, i’ll just give them the benefit of doubt, that they indeed sincerely flame one another for being unappreciative of one another’s opinions (this sentence sounded ultraly redundant….. and is there such word, ultraly??), thus the blogosphere feud.

but don’t you feel all high school-ish? (okay, not all of you, since 90% of you probably had no idea what i’m babbling about) but all these i-blog-about-your-inferiority-because-i-think-you-badmouthed-me behavior is oh-so-yesterday. i mean it just made me feel i’m in high school all over again. yeah…. this is so juvenile. in a way….. but again, who am i to judge? i am just a mere blogger who had nothing better to do than reading others’ blogs…….

so i say, fire ahead, bloggers. create some interesting controversies so i can at least have something to laugh at during my long working hours…..

blogger, blogger, pants on fire.. fire on!!

p/s: this blog entry is pointless…..

clothed in love…..

granny paid her granddaughter a visit. and as the evening came, the granddaughter came out of her room stark naked. in shock, granny asked her precious baby:” why aren’t you wearing anything, my dear?” in reply, the granddaughter told her:” oh i am, granny. i’m wearing the love dress. my hubby is coming back shortly, would you like to take leave now?”

granny thought it would be wise to head back before her grandson-in-law comes back. and on her way home, she pondered upon the love dress that the granddaughter told her. “maybe that’s how they keep their sparks alive in the relationship”

thinking that is a great idea to spice up their love lives, granny decided to use that love dress trick. so as she reached home, she stripped naked and waited for her husband to come home.

husband came back, in shocked at the sight of the naked wife: “why aren’t you wearing anything, honey?”
“but i am”, replied granny. ” i’m wearing the love dress.”
husband:”well, in that case, shouldn’t you iron your dress before putting it on?”
granny:”…………..”

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in a not so light note, it’s Good Friday today. let us not forget what He had done for us on the cross some 2000 years ago. have a great easter weekend, and God bless!