Hillsong United

Live in Malaysia… and the verdict: one word – AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it had been ages since i last attended a “real” concert!! the thought of squashing with 2999 other people in a confined area that housed a max of 1300 people seated still gives me goosebumps… that squashing and squeezing is no fun.

but what is a concert without the crowd? and what is a concert without a very sweaty stranger standing next to you, sharing his sweat with you??? (eewwwwwwww, i know)

but despite the squashing, feet being stomped by the Goliath standing in front of you, or your height does not give you the advantage to look front at Joel Houston or even at the side screens, the whole concert is still awesome!!!

of course, when in a concert, despite it being a Christianity based concert, everyone will still be sucked into the hype of endorphine and adrenaline rush… it’s inevitable. but we will have to be very careful that we don’t get too involve and idolize the celebrities until we forgot the purpose of the concert – that is to seek the Almighty and to be in His presence.

but after all, never be too judgmental and critical that we cease to have fun and enjoy the atmosphere of cheerfulness and energetic screams of thousands of youth.. it’s a youth meeting, so, be youthful!!! (i’m far from it…. by the end of the night, i felt my bones crushed and lost my voice completely!! feel like an old lady despite my young age!!)

definitely, one day in the house of God is better than a thousand elsewhere!!

i remember

yes…. i was 15 back then, and there’s this boy (my classmate) had this stupid competition with his buddy (also a classmate) on who will win my heart over & be his girlfriend… very funny right…. hahaha

anyways, the story went this way. boy had been talking to me over the phone for weeks. i treated him as a buddy, too, never thought of his outerior motives lar…..

so, anyways…. buddy asked me one night over the phone if he can “court” me. i told him frankly, that oh well, if you want to, go ahead, but does not necessarily means that you’ll win my heart… and buddy took this as a green light (i should have said no that time, but i was too gentle to break a young chap’s heart), and started treating me as his girlfriend the next day…

erm… okay…. i don’t really care that time, that he told everyone that i’m his girlfriend. i mean to me, i’m not. i’m just merely a girl that he likes…. so no big deal right. i don’t even think he held my hand before….. HAHAHAHAHA

but anyways… it was after PMR that i decided, i should stop this guy from falling into the pithole deeper and deeper. so i decided to break it off with him. and i knew that buddy is a late sleeper so i called him like 7 am to tell him the bad news…… i am so cruel…. maybe that’s why i’ve been dumped by guys i really love….. HAHAHA…. karma

anyways… just thought maybe i’d share this with u guys to humor you

i’m getting dumber by the second

yes……….. i’m not kidding……. i. am. getting. really. stupid. now.

i seriously have to be intellectually challenged… ok… sudoku daily.

that’s it!! settle.

oh, baby’s currently being sprayed at the workshop. and being reshaped to it’s gorgeous silhouette… i must name my car…. seriously… proton saga sounds so dumb.

boy i can’t get you out of my head

cue in kylie minogue’s music: nah nah nah, nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah….

no… not THAT boy…. this is another boy i’m talking about.

and we met only twice… this is absolutely stupid. it’s like a kiddish crush that a teenage girl has.

oh!! can’t believe i’m having butterflies in my stomach thinking of him.

infatuation can be really stupid at times. i mean, to my defense, he is not the type of guy i’d imagine i’d fall for (well, except for his good physique and height… a whopping 6 (or more) feet tall!!)…. he’s only a month older than i am, which is too young for my taste. way TOO FLAMBOYANT for my taste… very very very sanguine and chorelic (shudder)… just NOT my type…

but as i say, this is just a crush (can you believe it??? i’m 24 soon and i still have crushes on boys…. this is like high school all over). and we’ll see how soon this crush gets over.. HAHAHAHA!!! maybe tomorrow!!! since i barely see that fella around, and chance is i’ll most likely not see him again too!!!

i guess having a crush on someone makes myself feel young…. that’s a good start

i need to have that youthful feeling

my pride is also my heartache

picture says a thousand words:

my heartache: car was SCRATCHED at the tight parking exit of the office:

up close n personal: my pain. am actually crying now ok

couple inches away… forgive the stupid face

tell me why?????

tell me why??? ain’t nothing but a heartache…
tell me why??? ain’t nothing but a mistake….

okay!!! got to stop the backstreet boy’s cheesy song (although i used to be a huge fan)

but seriously, tell me why????????

someone answer me these:

WHY:

1. am i obsessed with SHOES!!!!!!! do i need to further explain this???
2. am i obsessed with BAGS!!!!!! and branded one some more…. no lar, i don’t have ALL branded stuff lar ok, my dad doesn’t print money… but i am attracted to all kinds of branded stuff, ok, with the exception of Louis Vuitton, Gucci, Prada (very ugly in my humble opinion)….
3. am i obsessed with clothes… ok, this clothes obsession is MILD considered to shoes and bags… but still… it’s there so i’ll just jot it down
4. am i obsessed with MONEY!!!!!! money money money!!! i want MORE money!!! (who doesn’t)
5. am i so scattered brain???????????? i totally forgot what i wanted to ask, it’s there somewhere but then i got distracted…. why am i so scattered brain??? -____-

ok lar… whichever guru that is so wise, answer my questions lar…. but please do not give me answers like “because you’re a woman” or “because you’re born like that”…. must be some deep deep deep and wise answer….

i know, this post is so off!! like seriously, no content at all, but it’s ok…. i’m an airhead anyways… well, not really…. hehehe.. i’m just B.O.R.E.D and at work

today i arrived work at 8:10am

and i’ve finished my breakfast already (and glancing at my watch, it’s now 8:35 am)!!!!

this is the new record set for my “arriving office early” records…. usually, i reached the office just in time, i.e. 9 am…

but today i drove to work…. that’s right!! i left home at about hmmph, 7:35?? reached the office at around 8:05…. it took me 5 minutes to reverse park the car into perfection (note: car in the middle of the parking box, ample space between my car and other cars)… yes. I AM ANAL!!!! and i make sure my tires are straight….. and such……. oooooohhhhhhhhhhhh ……… i’m NOT a perfectionist… i’m just sometimes very anal about certain things……

anyhow….. it’s still blardy early….. never mind….. i can nap before it strikes 9.

Wednesday, May 28

hillsong united concert.

i’m going

3:06 pm

time crawls slower than a turtle strolling on the beach………………………..

the long weekend has been good & bad.

took my new ride for several drives to gain familiarity with the roads of mud city. and threw a huge tantrum over very very minute issues. i am such a baby.

it had been a rocky ride of a roller coaster, emotionally, these few days. it fluctuates between hiccups and smooth swallowing. oh, life can be so irritating at times, but wonderful too…. i guess it’s just irritatingly wonderful.

anyways, anyone out there to support me? please do…

and, just an update, i’ve gotten myself a place to bunk in. nope, not a bachelor’s pad, just an apartment unit with 3 rooms. the other 2’s occupied by the person sleeping next to me and her brother. i know…. not much personal space comparing to owning a whole apartment by oneself. but i’ll have to make do right now. at least i’ve got my OWN room for starters…

am brainstorming on ideas to decorate my room on a way CHEAP scale. i’m NOT cheapskate. i’m just not that rich… so, furniture will be gotten from Tesco & Jusco. Ikea?? oh well, Ikea’s there for ideas. and maybe a lamp or 2. not more…. and will still sleep on the floor….. nope, no bed frame for me… i’ll fall from the bed (trust me, it happens more than twice before)

but anyways, had a fair idea of what i wanna do with my room… simple n cozy and nice…. yep!! that’s the way to go

downcast

i’m very much beaten now. i know, in the midst of the excitement of my new baby and such, i must be in high spirits to enjoy my ride.

but no. i’m very much spiritually beaten now. the exact feeling that i have now is defeat. i feel defeated. it’s as though i’ve been warring against something and i was defeated. what is worse is the morale was low.

i haven’t thrown a fit in a long time, and today i lost it. i threw my wallet on my table with much force that my Thermoflask was knocked down. that is it! i’ve lost it. i’m not feeling an ounce of remorse for such fit. i wasn’t aiming my blow at anyone but myself.

the internal conflict that makes you hate yourself more than anything else. the struggle that you have that tear yourself into two. it’s a constant turmoil that was stirred deep inside that you feel like puking all over the place.

it’s a disgusting feeling of defeat and you know that’s not what you want. you feel you should triumph over the enemy but you’re forced to face the bare facts that is not what it is…. you are momentarily struck down by the enemy. you know you’ll have to get on your two feet and fight back, but then you are exhausted… this is a much disgusted feeling.

currently, david is being pursued by saul.