with everything

verse 2: break down our pride, and all the walls we’ve built up inside, our earthly crowns and all our desires, we lay at your feet

pre-chorus: let hope rise, and darkness tremble in your holy light, that every eye will see, Jesus our God, great and mighty to be praised

 

 

quantum of solace

be my everything

you’re there, always there, no matter where, no matter when. and maybe, just maybe, if i pay just enough attention, i can hear you chuckle at the little mistakes i made; or perhaps when the night is quiet and cold, i can hear your weeping with me.

you’ve always told me, that you will always be there when i needed you, that you will always listen, that you will always, always be my everything: my need, my triumph, my solution, my everything.

and too many a times, i chose to look the other way. too many a times, i chose to walk the path i had chosen. and too many a times you were quick to pick me up whenever the paths i chose were so rocky i fell along the way.

countless times i crawled back to your feet, clutching them tightly, wetting them with tears of pain, tears of disappointment, tears of despair. and everytime you never fail to help me back on my feet, wiping my tears away and tell me everything is alright, that everything is fine.

but how many times had i forgotten you during my days of sunshine? perhaps too many times, that i have neglected your voice when you called out to me, in the midst of the other voices that drowned my hearing, voices that draw us apart.

yet, the truth remains. you are beside me. sitting with me side by side, walk with me, run with me, laugh with me, cry with me, go crazy with me. you are always, always there.

it took awhile for me to realize, but i think i had finally got it. be my everything. just be my everything, because you are my everything. maybe never did i tell you before, and maybe you have not hear enough of it from me, but please, be my everything. you are my everything.

future endeavor

i don’t know how it strikes me, but it does, that i should some how come up with a plan down the road. a good, strong, realistic plan that provides for myself.

it is no secret that i’m a quarter of a century old this year.  a young adult, in my mid twenties, and i should really start planning out things for my own sake. perhaps for my own benefits, or perhaps for people whom i love.

but after all, i’ve got the benefits of age. i’m stills young and still adventurous, but yet i don’t want to waste my days away just as many others do. and i had come to a point where i’ve decide to work towards something. it has to be something solid, something good, something that ensures a bright and secure future.

and i’ve given myself a time frame for following through my plans. it might work out, it might not, but alas, i’m aiming towards it. and i’m setting a goal for myself. so when i’m 28, which is 3 years down the road, i will want to see my plan accomplished. and i will want to declare my plan a success.

it might seem like a huge leap, considering the circumstances that i’m stuck in, but i believe that the good Lord will help me sort out my wearies and cares. for after all, He knows what’s best for me.

1 peter 5:7

“Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you”

this verse practically gets me over the moon, yet soothe my soul at the same time.

overcome

to the ones that need breaktrhoughs and victories in life, this is for you.

Overcome by New Life Worship

Seated above
Enthroned in the Father’s love
Destined to die
Poured out for all mankind
God’s only son
Perfect and spotless one
He never sinned
But suffered as if he did

All authority
Every victory is Yours
All authority
Every victory is Yours

Chorus:
Savior
Worthy of honor and glory
Worthy of all our praise
You overcame
Jesus
Awesome in power forever
Awesome and great is Your name
You overcame

Power in hand
Speaking the Father’s plan
You’re sending us out
Light in this broken land

All authority
Every victory is Yours
All authority
Every victory is Yours

Repeat Chorus Twice

Bridge:
We will overcome
By the blood of the Lamb
And the word of our testimony
Everyone overcome

play back

He has been prompting, and alas i gave in and open the door of my heart. and as i dwell deep in His presence and carefully understand the words,  just as though the inner man was moved by power,  the floodgate was opened and the spirit stirred.

it had been a while since i was last on my knees.

in Your freedom i will live, i offer devotion.

In Your Freedom by Hillsong (Savior King, 2007)

Verse 1:

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
Verse 2:

And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart
Pre-chorus:

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me
Chorus:

And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
Verse 3:

I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
Pre-chorus:

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me

Chorus:

And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
Bridge:

In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

lost

for once, i am at lost, and very much confused. i don’t think i know at all, and i don’t think i know anymore.

the urge and yearn of wanting to know is starting to take over, and it is getting overwhelming. so much so that it is consuming my entire being, my entire emotion.

ah, release me from this, i ask. release me, feed me the knowledge and surety. free me with your clear cut answer. show me and open the way. lead me to the open field and let me see, be it daphodiles that brighten up the entire plain with its bright yellow color, or a field of withered plants that are struggling to fight the winter cold.

i want to know. i need to know. i don’t want to be drenched in confusion and trickery. no more doubts and guesses. i want openness and surety. a clear answer that releases me from my agony.

oh, send forth your word, send forth your vision. release me, the prisoner imprisoned in the world of oblivion.

it’s with a heavy heart

that i am bidding this blog goodbye and shutting it down for real……

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good bye to you, all my four readers, good bye. au revoir.

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who am i kidding??? i’m not shutting this blog down. don’t be silly. i live to blog and i blog to live, well, in a way, but you sort of get what i mean, right?

but i am not kidding when i said i am with a heavy heart, though. i am as down and beaten as i can be. but i try so hard to lift my head up and look upwards to heaven and start my annoying chant over again. haha… whatever it takes to make me feel better.

but yeah. in hopes of feeling better. i know, premenstrual stress is just an excuse, but hey, let me rant so i don’t bite your head off. but i don’t bite. at least when i bite, i don’t pull your flesh out. i just leave very nice set of my teeth mark on your arm, or on wherever i had bitten.

but to those that know what i am going through, please keep me in prayer, okay? i need all the prayer support that i can get to keep me going and to see it come to pass (it has to, and i’d like to claim it, too!!). thanks a lot. and i guess that’s all for now.

there’s pain in the waiting

there is pain in the waiting, the agony is tormenting.

like a woman in labor, waiting to push the life out of her.

like a woman in labor, i am waiting anxiously.

anxious in knowing, anxious in waiting.

to know if life is formed, to know that success is mine.

keeping my fingers crossed; chanting the prayer over and over.

hoping that with every little prayer chanted; a stirring is created in the heavenly realms.

hoping that with every little prayer said; mountains are moved and the paths made straight.

so chant and pray, and still pain in the wait.

but i know that it is worth, the pain and the wait.