although i wished for permanence, but i still thank the Lord for His kind thoughts.

and this weekend, i discover the power of a woman’s intuition. or rather my intuition.

and now, it’s back to praying – moving the hands of God.

mocha & i

yes i know. i am still as vain as ever.

i am back. like finally. then again, i don’t think i’d be as fervent as i was in blogging. i grew out of it, i think. or rather, i grew up.

or we can look at it this way: life wasn’t that miserable anymore hence i have nothing else to blog on. and then again, life wasn’t that chirpy that i have lots of joyous news to share.

i know. boring. but hey, that’s how i am. plus, seriously, who reads this blog (other than you, susana)? and that, who on earth google “hanthen yeo freddy”? seriously! people. what will the search engine provide on my “relationship” with freddy?

anyways, i will try to keep this blog alive. but i guess i can’t promise much. i hate making promises that i know high chances i can’t keep.

and then there comes a rock, thrown to the surface. rippling the quietness, shattering the stillness.

that’s my bubble burst.

oh well… i guess i just have to squeeze them lemons that life sometimes thrown at.

hoping? yes. for a greater promise, for greater things to come by.

all my way through the day and the night stars shine above me

he’s been gone for some time but i know i truly love him

and i’m singing a song hoping he’ll be back when he hears it.

my heart goes shalala la la, shalala in the morning

oh, oh, oh, shalala la la, shalala in the sunshine

shalala la la, shalala  la la in the evening

shalala la la, shalala la la just for you.

if your love’s gone away just like mine, you feel like crying

sing along maybe once, maybe twice, let’s try it together

some sweet day, no one knows, he’ll return and you’ll be happy

shout it sweet in a song, listen to your heart it is singing

my heart goes shalala la la, shalala in the morning

oh, oh, oh, shalala la la, shalala in the sunshine

shalala la la, shalala  la la in the evening

shalala la la, shalala la la just for you.

but i guess life has been pretty much of a standard operation lately. well, apart from the incident where poor mother slipped and fell, fractured her right patella and was hospitalized. still is hospitalized, as a matter of fact.

but i guess the desire to blog has really fizzled out, and blogging seems to be more of a chore than a pleasure. and honestly, i really am contemplating in shutting this blog off and just move on with life.

and i suppose at this point, unless something really interesting happens, i guess the urge to pen things down will really just remain, well, urge-less.  but then in terms of updates, i guess those active facebookers will be able to know what’s going on with my life through the magic book.

or perhaps i am moving into a different phase of life. you know, the really lazy-no-mood-to-blog phase. well, i still blog. i guess, out of obligation to my one and only reader. it’s not like i will completely abandon this page and just leave it high and dry. i am, afterall, a very sentimental person.

and speaking of sentiments, hmm.. i am getting a little sentimental. nostalgic to be more accurate. i guess i can only keep my nostalgia to myself and add it to my prayer list.

and as the clock struck twelve, it’s time for cinderella to flee the party. adios, for now.  keep your fingers crossed for something magical for me.

and may my life be a pleasing sacrifice.

photo courtesy of alex. gorgeous picture of the sun setting, don’t ya think?

moments like this we amazed at the wonders of God’s creative hands, and think of His goodness.

and once good friday came round, i took off and had an awesome weekend spent with some awesome people over the south china sea.

it was great to catch up with my buddies, yet again. it was even greater to know that i am blessed with such great friends and family.

it was a short trip, however a great one. i wish to have more time with you guys, but i am pleased to know that distance makes no strain on our friendship. we are still as closely knitted as ever, and you guys are still as precious to me as ever.

can’t wait till my next trip. not sure when, yet. but fear not! ayam kambing bag (i am coming back)!!!

sorting through my shoe rack, i found out that i have just enough pairs of shoes to walk in, but it will seriously be good to have an additional pair or two

and then i was looking through my bags, and lo and behold, i admit that i have more than enough bags to carry.

so my mission now, is to seriously get more clothes on the hanger, shoes on the rack, and stay off from bags.  but then again, i don’t have THAT many bags either…